(CNN)Juan Elias, a father of two in Oakland, California, has been experiencing a feeling that is deeply familiar to most moms since he became the primary caregiver of his two sons during the pandemic.
Fatherhood and the pandemic: How men are stepping up with child care
"I'm suffering from guilt. It's a new feeling, and I have it all the time," Elias said about the pressure to make sure his sons, 4 and 7, are being adequately stimulated during the day. "It's hard. My brain is split, my attention is going in so many directions at once."
For many dads, this Father's Day will be different. Sure, they've always loved their kids and valued being a parent. But never before have so many fathers spent so much time deep in the parenting trenches.
With the pandemic came more time at home for everyone. And with that, came more time with our kids, making lunches, managing schedules, negotiating television and video game time and tending to tantrums and sibling spats.
Moms, early research has shown, have taken on more of this work. That's partially because they're less likely to be employed outside the home or have flexible jobs, and partially because old habits die hard. It's predicted that mothers will bear most of the burden of the pandemic, professionally and financially in the long run.
Before the pandemic, women were already, on average, making less than men and doing more unpaid household labor — even when both parents had full-time jobs.
But — and here's the good news — the shelter-in-place laws have led to dads doing more than ever around the house. Some experts believe this could be a watershed moment for gender equality in the home.
Over the past 50 years, fathers have, bit by bit, become more engaged parents.
Today's dads do roughly three times as much child care, and more than two times as much housework as fathers did in 1965. Also, the majority of dads say they value gender equality in the home and want to spend more time with their kids.
Still, we're far from equity around the house, and women suffer for it. Mothers are penalized at work thanks to the assumption that they, and not their male partners if they have one, will be sidetracked by domestic responsibilities.
Also, paternity leave, paid or unpaid, remains rare, and even when fathers are offered it they don't take it. This is despite evidence that paternity leave leads to dads being more involved fathers in the long run, and more equitably dividing chores with their partners.
This is as cultural as it is structural, and those two pieces are chicken and the egg. We lack policies — at least in the United States — that allow parents to share work more equitably because the people don't demand them, and people can't embrace more equitable sharing because the policies don't allow them.
"Men are torn between the breadwinning role and parenting," said Daniel L. Carlson, assistant professor of family and consumer studies at the University of Utah.
"We know that most women say they won't marry a man who won't be a breadwinner. But then the men also want to be involved dads. Then at the workplace, they're expected to be only the breadwinner with no other responsibilities and, when push comes to shove, work wins."
Sometimes, big shifts require an external tipping point, and Carlson and other experts believed Covid-19 might provide just that when it comes to men reconciling their work and family lives.