Charlie Hebdo cartoonist Renald Luzier (L) aka 'Luz' after the funeral service of Charlie Hebdo editor and cartoonist Stephane Charbonnier aka 'Charb' in his hometown on January 16, 2015 in Pontoise, France. Charlie Hebdo's editor Stephane Charbonnier was amongst those killed in the terrorist attack on the satirical newspaper.
Cartoonist quits Charlie Hebdo
01:25 - Source: CNN

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Renald Luzier says continuing to work at the magazine has become "too much to bear"

"Finishing each edition is torture because the others are gone," he tells the French newspaper Liberation

CNN  — 

The only Charlie Hebdo cartoonist to survive the massacre of the magazine’s staff is leaving the publication, he says.

Renald Luzier was running late on the January day when two gunmen burst into the satirical magazine’s offices and killed the other five cartoonists who worked for Charlie Hebdo.

Luzier then drew the French satirical magazine’s first front cover image after the deadly Islamist terror attack, showing the Prophet Mohammed weeping and saying “All is forgiven.”

The cartoon prophet held a sign saying “Je suis Charlie,” the slogan of those who stood up for the magazine after the killings.

Luzier, who draws under the pen name Luz, said in an interview with French newspaper Liberation that continuing to work at Charlie Hebdo had become “too much to bear.”

Charlie Hebdo cartoonist Renald Luzier, who draws under the name "Luz," is shown after the funeral of Charlie Hebdo editor and cartoonist Stephane Charbonnier, also known as "Charb," in January.

“There was hardly anyone left to draw,” he said in the interview published on the newspaper’s website late Monday. “I found myself doing three front pages out of four.”

When the first issue after the killings came out, Luzier said he felt a sense of “catharsis” after drawing the cartoon. But last month, he said he would no longer draw the prophet, explaining that he “got tired of him.”

Charlie Hebdo had a history of depicting and lampooning Mohammed – taboo to some Muslims – and the gunmen who carried out the attack on the magazine were thought to be motivated by those parodies.

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Luzier, 43, told Liberation that the decision to leave was “very personal” and that he wanted “to rebuild myself, to regain control of my life.”

“Finishing each edition is torture because the others are gone. Spending sleepless nights summoning the dead, wondering what Charb, Cabu, Honore, (and) Tignous would have done is exhausting,” he said, referring to some of his murdered colleagues.

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CNN’s Alexander Felton, Richard Allen Greene and Ariana Williams contributed to this report.