Bob Greene describes parents' heartbreaking wait for kids, many of whom didn't arrive
Greene: There are days we want to ask: Has America gone insane?
He says the joke of duck-and-cover drills has given way to deadly serious lockdown drills
Greene: We hear stories of attacks and what we should do, but it all feels like flailing
Editor’s Note: CNN contributor Bob Greene is a best-selling author whose 25 books include “Late Edition: A Love Story,” “Once Upon a Town: The Miracle of the North Platte Canteen” and “When We Get to Surf City: A Journey Through America in Pursuit of Rock and Roll, Friendship, and Dreams.”
That is the phrase used by the parent of a Sandy Hook Elementary School student, describing to a reporter what went on in the firehouse near the school as terrified mothers and fathers arrived in the minutes and hours after the shootings.
The mothers and fathers looked anxiously for children who had lived through the shootings and had been brought into the firehouse. The surviving children and their parents found each other.
But the other parents waited and waited. Their sons and daughters did not appear.
And as the mothers and fathers who had been reunited with their children left the firehouse to go to their homes, a list began to be compiled. On it were the names of the boys and girls who were not accounted for.
The most heart-shattering and unbearable list that can be imagined.
Those 20 children, as they had left home for school earlier that day, were boys and girls who had favorite television shows, and Christmas wish lists, and jokes that only they and their families understood, and brothers and sisters they knew they’d be having dinner with.
And parents, who now waited in the rapidly emptying Sandy Hook Volunteer Fire and Rescue station.
There are days when it seems fair to ask if part of American life has gone irretrievably insane. A description of the scene inside the elementary school, from a law enforcement official who spoke to a reporter, was that it resembled “a killing field.”
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That is a term of warfare, even of genocide, yet it seems not at all out of place in the context of contemporary domestic news.
“We have lockdown drills,” said Mary Ann Jacob, a library clerk at the school. She was explaining to reporters that the teachers, children and staff at Sandy Hook Elementary, like teachers, children and staff at elementary schools all across the United States, were well versed in the advisability of preparing for a day like Friday.
Lockdown drills. More than half-a-century ago, children in elementary schools were trained in so-called duck-and-cover drills: the practice of diving under desks in case of nuclear attack by foreign enemies. Even at the time, it felt kind of comical; few boys and girls really believed that enemy aircraft were going to materialize over Midwestern or Southern or West Coast skies, bearing atomic payloads – and a schoolroom desk, even in children’s eyes, didn’t promise much of a shelter against a bomb. American children tended to laugh and kid through the drills.
Today’s enemies seem considerably more real, and the children are taught to understand that. “The kids knew the routine,” the librarian said.
Thus, with the gunman in the school, she led the boys and girls to the lockdown-drill location: “between some bookcases and a wall, where you can’t be seen from any windows.”
And, because they were children, and not soldiers trained in responding to heavy weaponry, when she and her colleagues then led the children to a storeroom and locked the door, she did the only thing she could to calm them as shots rang through the school: