- Olympian Allison Schmitt struggled with depression after the 2012 London Games
- The swimmer decided to open up after her cousin's suicide
(CNN)Imagine that swimming is what you've loved for more than 15 years, but whenever you dive into the pool, you feel like a disappointment, unmotivated to go forward. The feeling is almost destructive. That was what was going on in Allison Schmitt's mind during training after the 2012 London Olympic Games.